I also have some exciting news. Might not be exciting to anybody else-but it is exciting and rather relieving to me. I'm taking a semester off of school-at least the summer II semester if not the entire semester. I'm finishing out this semester, might take some summer I courses and will start back in the fall.For those of you who don't know, I've gone for 2 and a half yrs straight including summers. During nursing school I also took A&P 1 and 2 and Microbiology, which meant taking 16 hours 2 semesters and 19 hours one semester-with a 1 year old. Not only that but Guy and I married 9 days before we moved to Sweetwater and hit college full time. 1st year of marriage, a baby, and both going to college full time with Guy working after class and on weekends. Can you say STRESSFUL?? I've done alot, I have all of my Associates Pre-reqs and several of by Bachelor's pre-reqs. School for me has ALWAYS been done for Shelby, and now for both of my girls, so I have felt a little bit of Mommy Guilt every time I have wanted to take a break. It sounds dumb, right? But who can explain the feelings and reasons a Mom feels the way she does about certain things when it comes to her kids?? This morning, as I was beginning a Government paper that is due tomorrow @ 6 and Leah was nursing simultaneously (TMI for some of you out there-if anybody is reading this!), and Shelby wanted me to cut her an apple and have a tea party and help her get a book off of her shelf, phone ringing, and the dryer buzzing all at the same time I realized that it is okay. It is okay to feel stressed. It is okay to take a break. It is okay to lighten your load for a few months. IT IS OKAY. The house will not come crashing down if I take ONE semester off-and neither will our financial future. Me finishing school is very important to me as a person and as a MOM and to our family's future, but what is MOST important right now is enjoying the girls, because they are only little ONCE.
I realize that I have probably written this post to convince myself that I should take some time-be it just 2 months-to be JUST a mom. Not a mom and student, and not a mom and nurse (I've thought about going to work to get my degree quicker), and not a mom and a nurse and a student. I realized that I don't have to be super woman and take on everything at once, and that being just MOM for 2 months is okay with me.
Tata for now. Gotta get dinner started-Guy just called to say he's on his way home! :)
Good for you...Sounds like a break is much needed and much deserved! And you're right, it's okay. I have to remind myself that it's okay that my house isn't fancy or always spotless, or that I don't always cook the healthiest meals, or that we eat at Pizza Hut at least once a week;] IT'S OKAY!! :] A friend of mine posted this on facebook today, and I just love it!
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That is so sweet-and so true! I am constantly having to remind myself that I will one day miss tripping over Shelby's princess chair in the middle of the night to go get Leah, and I will miss the constant "Mommy play with me"'s when they are 18 and 16, and I'm not fun anymore! The hardest thing for me is dealing with "Mommy Guilt". I feel guilty that I can't get it all done, which I'm finding out is not as rare as I once thought it was!!
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